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You probably don't know what the title of this post means, or if it's even a real language, but I will tell you that it's a promise.

The promise.

The promise that I have to make for this blog once people know my name, which will happen by the end of this post, so be patient, because it's a long one.  And no, that doesn't mean you can skip to the end and peek.  Where's the fun in that?

Well... let's do this!

To be honest, this is one of those things where I think,

"I never thought this day would come."

Because this blog means a lot to me, and I'm afraid once I'm known, it won't be the same.

I'm not super hipster, and I'm not very poetic.  I don't sugar-coat.

I'm real.

And if you remember the title of my first post, I told you that.

And I meant it.

Because when you're real and honest and just don't care what people think, the content means something.

I'm gonna sound super cocky when I say this, but on my "Top 5 Favorite Blogs" list, I'd put my blog on there.

I really don't say that because I feel like I'm better than everyone else, because I'm not.  There's so many good blogs.

But for me, I'm proud of the fact that I've been able to just share my thoughts and be real, without caring about what people think; for once.

The fact that I've made people feel things, like I said I would.

The fact that I've made people think, like I said I would.

The fact that I've made people uncomfortable, like I said I would.

I've told you guys a lot of stuff, stuff that I normally wouldn't just tell people when I see them.  But being real has set me free.

I've told you about my fear of divorce, and how my parents got one.

ONLY A YEAR AGO.

I've talked about liking a girl, in hopes that she wouldn't read it and find out it was about her.

EVEN THOUGH SHE'S KNOWN MY BLOG FROM THE BEGINNING, AND IT WAS OBVIOUSLY ABOUT HER.

I've told you that I used to be addicted to pornography, and that I've imagined having sex with those four girls in my last post.

AND THREE OF THEM HAVE READ THAT.

I've sworn on this blog, which I don't swear in normal conversation, even though I think swear words used wisely either add a lot of emotion or make things really funny.

AND I'M GOING ON A MISSION.

I've done some pretty risky things, which has been really awesome to be quite honest.  The rush of, "What the heck are people gonna say about this?" has been such a satisfying feeling.

The two words that people have used to describe my blog most are real and brave; two words I don't think I've ever been called in my life before.

You guys have gotten to see a fun side of me; my adventurous side.  And that's the side of me that I like most.

Nelson, I hope you consider me as one of the good male bloggers.

To the people who have commented on my posts so far, I love you guys.  Seriously, to finally have people tell me they like my writing has been such an amazing thing.  My suicidal thoughts have greatly diminished from your feedback, because I love knowing that I've changed people.  Please keep commenting, because this leads to the title of my post; the promise.

The translation of my title?

"I will continue to do my best."

The language?

Japanese.

Yes, it's me...

Stephen Brailsford.